BACK...

Hi Friends! Yes, I know. God knows how long I had not been blogging... And just as the title of this post says it... I'm back.

Maybe I'll be honest and let you all know the reason for me being MIA for so long...

Well, to simply put it, I went into the WORST SLUMP in my life. It was really bad. I stopped exercising for almost a month, never spent a single minute with God for a long time already, didn't go to church for 2 weeks, didn't sleep much, didn't eat properly, and even faked... oh well... you know... for 3 days!!!

How bad could it get? Well... all I did MOST of the time, was just sit right in front of the computer... playing games...

Man... I was a goner... totally lost man...

I even stopped visiting blogs, blogging, catching up with the latest happenings and news, stopped socialising, stopped meeting friends, and stopped doing a lot of things I should had been doing.

Like I said, I was totally LOST. What went through my mind, I really don't know. It could be the "satisfaction" that came from the "victories" I achieved in those games, or whatever "pleasure" that resulted from improving and getting better in those games. Heck, I know... what the heck.

It's like, I am heading into oblivion. Way off the plans of God.

And I thought I must have been MAD, going into that slump...

1. I am wasting my time, God's time

2. I am spoiling my eyes

3. What does it has to do with God's plans or His Kingdom???

4. The games ANGERS me at times... I get mad and curses at the stupid AI players in the game, only to realize that I... ME... am the BIGGEST IDIOT... since I chose to play that stupid game in the first place... Sigh... I can't believe what a fool I had been...

5. Brings no purpose ultimately... whatEVER is the outcome of the improvement or victory in those games...

Come to think about it... all those HOURS... DAYS... WEEKS... MONTHS... YEARS... that had been wasted away playing games... sigh...

Yup... you are looking at a chronic computer games addict... controlable at times... but just like the slump... can get out of control anytime...

Yes, I am being honest with God, I am being honest with all of you... this is something that I had been struggling with for almost the whole of my life... I was just thinking... maybe I would have been doing something else, had I not wasted my time playing games... like a doctor, instead of a nutritionist, like getting a lot of souls saved, instead of a lot of games saved... sigh...

The turning point?

There's this one fine day, after like weeks of the SLUMP, I started to realize a truth that I had known for so long and for so well...

Without vision, men perish.

Like a ship without sails or oars, it heads to God knows where.

I didn't fix my eyes on Jesus, on the plans of God, on the plans of getting rich, on the plans of going to US, on so many goals and plans, like staying fighting-fit.

And I realized... I'm not totally lost yet... His GRACE... oh... such a wonderful thing to know... is still sufficient for me... He still gives me a hand to get up and WALK again...

"It's never too late..."

Thank You Lord... *sob*

And that's the turning point. I realized that this year of 2007 has not ended YET! So on the 13th of Dec, 2007, I started running again, exercising again. On the 16th of Dec, I started going back to church... and IT FELT SO GOOD to be back in the House of the Lord! And I had deleted the game from my computer... from my life... never again will I touch that game... And I started making plans... plans to come back to my plans... LOL... sounds weird but that's what happens sometimes when you go off-track from your original plans. And one of those plans is definitely going to be spending time with God. THAT is NOT optional. Jesus is the VINE; I am the branch. If I remain in Him, and He in me, I will bear much fruit; apart from Him I can do nothing (John 15). And I NEED the WORD! How come I faltered away so easily? Without being grounded in the Word, of course, I don't have any deep roots to anchor myself in the storms of the enemy's attacks.

So... that's it... A NEW BEGINNING...

With the Lord...

2008... here I come!